I just need to let it go...

SO Goblin's sperm donor hasn't called or even TRIED to contact him in about a year. Last contact was when Goblin stayed there when I went to CA last year to take Shorty to the Tiger Cruise. We tried calling for his b-day to see if they were coming up. I thought I was over it.

His wife is on of my "friends" on Myspace, his mom comes up to visit (she was just here this past weekend and is coming back up next weekend) so its not like he is clueless about what is happening with us.

This morning I was bored and thought I would look to see if he had Myspace. I mean, his wife does so its not totally out of the realm of possibility, right?

He does. No big, not a helluva lot on there of any substance. Then I made the mistake of looking at the pics. There aren't many, but the ones of the kids are just his step-kids and his youngest. WTF happened to the other two boys he has fathered? I understand that he would have some of his youngest and his wife's middle son because they live there with them, but his wife's oldest lives with his Dad and there are pics of him on there. Goblin obviously lives with me and we are a couple hours drive away, so that's not that big of a deal. He doesn't have many of Goblin because he hasn't seen him in a freakin year!. His middle son lives with his mom and they live in the same damn town! Why aren't there pics of him?

HE even has the nerve to say something along the lines of loving being a Dad in the blurb about himself on his Myspace page. Why doesn't he care about Goblin? Why does he have to break MY SON'S heart like this! I know it hurts Goblin that the sperm donor is such an @$$. I could so kill that right now.

He's never been much of a presence in Goblin's life. He disappeared when I was pregnant. When we moved back to WA the first time after DH and I got married he was around a little bit then disappeared to CO for awhile. When we moved back here this time, he made an effort till his youngest son was born and then its like Goblin and his other son just didn't matter anymore.

I am not a person to have regrets about anything, but the more and more I think about it, the more I regret that push for Goblin to "know" his sperm donor. On one hand I hate that he has hurt my baby like this but on the other hand I am glad that Goblin knows what he really is.

Got Orders?

Well, we do! FINALLY!!!!! DH got a call the other day saying that he did was approved for orders he wanted! YAY for us! Though it does mean we have to move in about a month. YIKES! I'm really ok with the fact that we have to move, its just the actual moving part that freaks me out. Anyone who knows me, knows I have a little bit of gypsy in me so the prospect of seeing someplace new and being able to explore its just fun! :)

Anyway... That's what's up in my little world right now...

1 Down, 2 to go!

Today was Goblin's school registration. We got there about 0915 and stood in a freaking line till almost 1000! Turns out we didn't even *need* to stand in the line since it was to pay for ASB, Yearbooks and sports. *doh* Once we got in the door and got his schedule, we just had to get his ID done (that took all of a minute!) and then get his locker assignment. Poor guy got overheated while we were in line! he was wearing his orange hoody and we were standing in the sun. its turning into a rather warm day too! Once he got his sweatshirt off and a looooong drink of water he perked right up. I hate when he gets that pale!

After we were done at the school we went to Costco. bought some stuff we needed there and got some lunch. it wasn't till after he got some food in his belly that his color really returned to normal though. It really kinda scared me.

Went to Lowe's after that to get a water cooler dispenser thing. I am so sick of fighting with the rented one! I am going to call them tomorrow to pick it up. After Lowe's went to deposit my paycheck and then the commissary.

now we are home and I am soooo sleepy! Shorty has his registration on the 23rd and I'm not sure when Boober's is because I'm not sure which school she is going to go to! If you read my blog regularly, you know she was accepted into the "Gifted and Talented" program this year. well, that might mean a different school than the one that Shorty and Goblin went to for 3rd grade. its a almost brand new school, I think this is going to be only the 3rd year its been open. hopefully I get a call back soon this afternoon. If not, I will call them back again and see for sure.

They have their back to school physicals on the 27th and 28th. Its been awhile since they have been to the doctor. they just don't get sick! So I thought it was time to get them physicals and that way they get the shots they need, if they need any! I don't think Goblin will need any, but pretty Shorty will need one and possibly Boober. I think Boober will need the varicella booster soon.

so that's it in a nutshell... this school year and PCS are going to be the death of my sanity!

My house smells gooooooood!

Shorty decided to make meatloaf for dinner tonight. Boober helped him by collecting and adding the ingredients. I love that they can work together when they want to without much hassle. they also decided to make some blueberry muffins for dessert! YUM! I did something right! lol

Still struggling with insomnia these days. *sigh* I hate it! Started reading a book about the women who were forced to give their children up for adoption in the decades before Roe VS Wade and its just heart breaking what those women had to go through. I am so grateful that I wasn't forced to give my son away. though i am sure there were some family members who wished that I had. I can't imagine not knowing where my son is or if he is healthy or happy. He's just such a wonderful, caring child. Yeah, he is a grumpy teenager, but for the most part its been wonderful having him around. I still honestly believe that having him saved my life.

Well, off to make the mashed potatoes to go with the meatloaf. Then again, I might just say to heck with it and just do the Caesar salad that I have in there!

You might be in the Pacific Northwest if...

1. You have no concept of humidity without precipitation
2. You throw an aluminum can in the trash and feel guilty
3. You use the word "sun breaks", and know what it means
4. You can't wait for a day with "Showers and sun breaks"
5. You only turn on your windshield wipers to "intermittent"
6. You know more than 10 ways to order a cup of coffee
7. You complain about Californians as you sell your house to one for twice its value
8. You never go camping without waterproof matches and a poncho
9. You know the exact location of 15 drive-thru espresso stands in your neighborhood
10. You stand on a deserted street corner in the rain, waiting for the "Walk" signal
11. You know more people who own a boat than an airconditioner
12. You obey all traffic laws, except "Keep right, except to pass"
13. You let other drivers merge in front of you
14. You can taste the difference between Starbucks, Seattle's Best Coffee, and Veneto's
15. You consider swimming an indoor sport
16. You think that if it has no snow on it, or has not erupted recently, it's not a real mountain
17. You can tell the difference between Japanese, Chinese, and Thai food
18. You understand what people mean when they say "pop"
19. You consider a floating bridge a pain in the butt, not an engineering marvel
20. You know what lutefisk is (visualize Ballard, ufdah)
21. You feel overdressed wearing a suit to a really fancy restaurant
22. You can point to at least two volcanoes, even if you can't see through the cloud cover
23. You personally know someone from Alaska
24. You think people who use umbrellas are either wimps or tourists
25. You find a wallet with $500 and give it back to the owner
26. You know how to pronounce Sequim, Puyallup, Rainier, and Issaquah
27. You used to live somewhere else, but won't admit it publicly
28. You know the difference between Chinook, Coho, and Sockeye salmon
29. You knew immediately that the view out Frazier's window was fake
30. You are amazed at an accurate weather forecast
31. You switch to your sandals when it gets above 60 degrees, but keep your socks on
32. You have actually used your mountain bike on a mountain
33. You would be miffed if the store were out of your favorite brand of water
34. You have ever ordered a "half caff/decaf, nonfat mocha grande with raspberry whip" (or know what it is)
35. You put on your shorts when the temperature gets above 50--, but still wear your hiking boots and parka
36. You feel you've grown up with Bill Gates and can't figure out why people can be so mean to him
37. You know the difference between "Today's Forecast: showers followed by rain", and "Tomorrow's Forecast: rain followed by showers"
38. In the winter, you go to work in the dark, come home in the dark, and yet only put in an 8-hour day
39. The bride & groom registered at REI
40. If someone ran your car off the freeway, you might drown
41. Half your friends work at Microsoft and Boeing
42. Fifteen blocks away is a good parking spot
43. You read the Stranger for the personal ads, even if you'd never answer one of them!
44. You try to read a book and drive at the same time
45. "Capitol Hill" doesn't mean legislation, it means drag queens
46. If the temperature gets over 80 degrees Fahrenheit, it's a "heat wave"
47. If the temperature goes below 20 degrees Fahrenheit, it's "record cold."
48. 40 days and 40 nights of torrential rain doesn't sound like Biblical floods - it sounds like a typical spring.
49. The guy in the $5000 suit is the vice president of the company. The company's president is the guy in Dockers and a polo shirt.
50. When someone says he's cruising for Dicks, you know he's not soliciting you - just hungry.
51. If you know what "Acres of Clams" is
52. If you put an empty soda can in your purse to recycle it later
53. If summer begins with Folklife and ends with Bumbershoot
54. If you consider a beer list to be equal to the wine list.
55. Seven blocks of alternating one-way streets seems perfectly logical

Third time's the charm?

I certainly hope so! I redid the tests that I failed yesterday (on a 5 question test, its easy to do lmao) and this morning received the rest of my results. Out of the first 25 I did (though like 4 or so had no test, just review, but I think I mentioned that already lol), yesterday I had 3 that I needed to retake. This morning I have 1 of those original 3 and that's it. *sigh*

Good news is, since there was no work available in the other areas I usually do, I was trained early on the new method and there is plenty of work there to do! I also might be trained in another QA stage, but not sure how that will work with the move and all. I just hope I can get through this current training with my sanity intact!

What else... oh, I just got an email talking about a freakin countdown to THANKSGIVING! ACK! Its barely August people! Granted, they are trying to sell me dishes for that "perfect place setting" but come on! Give me a break! Then again, at least its not Christmas.... yet!

Off to get some work done!

Sharing a few pics

On our way home from FIL's the other day the kids and I stopped a the Mt St Helen's visitor's center. They have a nice little trail that winds through the area. I could not believe how many dragonflies were there! Goblin took most of the pics and the kids all loved seeing the dragonflies here, there and everywhere. we did come across a fuzzy orange thing squirming in the water, but not sure what it was. Any thoughts?



Goblin took some really neat pics! There was a stump with some mushrooms on it.



I tried to get a good pic of the kids, but all I got was their backs and one with them to far away.


He also got this GREAT one of the mountain!


Well, I think that is all outta me for now. I should be working but I'm just so cranky right now. *yawn* Oh well, I will get to it I am sure.

Welcome to another month!

WOW! August already! This whole year has just flown by for me! Especially these last couple months! I just hope we hear something about DH's orders soon. Gotta love the military sometimes!

On another note, got some feedback on some of the tests I did yesterday for work. Out of the first 7 I only passed 2 tests. HOWEVER, the first two codes had no test so really, I got 2 out of 5. *sigh* Oh well, it was the very beginning of the process and I think I know where I made my mistakes. Now to go back and re-take those tests! I just wish I knew for sure what I did wrong, you know? So that is the start of my morning today. I think I will just re-do those tests and then wait for feedback on the rest of the ones I did yesterday (got halfway through it last night when I had to call it quits because my brain was leaking out my ears lol) and then try to get some work in. I don't think I did much of anything work-wise yesterday, just mostly the training stuff.

Weird thing, I was up before the kids this morning! Shorty stayed at a friend's house last night so it was just Goblin, Boober and me. Goblin was up past midnight with me. Silly me was folding laundry that late because I was doing the training all afternoon and just let it pile up! He was really good about putting things away without me telling him to and even helped me move Boober's clothes so that I could go to bed! Though he was also really good about pointing out just how much taller than me he has gotten! I swear that kid has grown an inch in just the last week! It feels like it anyway! I now have to look UP to even see past his chin! OK, so not totally WAY up, but still, its just not right! Thankfully for my sanity, the other two aren't seeming to grow as fast so I have a few more years of not being the shortest one in the house!

On yet another note, Casper is driving me nuts! For about the last week he has been peeing on the hard word in the entryway. I know its him because I have caught him doing it a couple times. I have no idea why he has started this all of a sudden but its got to stop! I actually thought last night about taking him to Purrfect Pals ( a local cat shelter/sanctuary) because I just can't take that stress on top of the rest of it! The kids would be heartbroken and I think Sammy wouldn't do well without his brother, but I just don't know what to do with him. Its not like the boxes aren't getting cleaned, the boys do it everyday and we have two! I hope he stops it soon. I can't take it!

Well, off to redo my tests. I might even get some quilting in today! :) I started a rail fence last night for a friend. Hope to get it done soon. Her baby is already here! I will post pics when its done. I still need to get border fabric and the backing for it though. Maybe in a couple days I will do that, when I have the top mostly completed and know just how big I am going to make it. I'm not really following a pattern, per se, but I didn't the last time I made a rail fence and I think it turned out really well. :)